I wonder at times why I continue to maintain this blog. I thought, when I set it up, that it would be a continuation of the previous polemical blog over at Liturgiae Causa. That was set up in defiance of manifest charlatanry and was for long the forum for me and others to discuss all the tired and bogus arguments surrounding Rome’s liturgical history relative to its present situation. I profess no more interest in those questions or putative solutions to them, even if there were any, and I am too much of a novice in my new faith to speak with authority about it; still less am I a patristics scholar or theologian. I set this place up more to just let people know that I was still alive, and I suppose that vainly I missed being a “voice” out there. But I don’t anymore. It occurred to me soon after the first few posts here that I had nothing left to say. “Blogging,” which started for me in 2008, was very much the manifestation of “Patricius,” a person reminiscent of my new self but myself no longer. Sort of like what one of my old tutors at Heythrop said to me about a chapter in a book he had written thirty years ago with which he no longer agreed. My whole world view has undergone a profound change. I am therefore giving serious thought to just packing it all in. Readership has haemorrhaged, perhaps because I don’t write anything of substance these days, but undoubtedly because I have offended people with my views or with silence. If you care to know, I feel as if I have become stopped clock!
In any case, I have more important things to do for the Church of Christ than to commit myself to the frivolity and futility of this stuff. The LORD’s work, in fact; such as finding a suitable new church for mission work in the area. I wonder if, years from now when I look back on my blogging years, I’ll ask myself what on earth possessed me to take it up in the first place? But perhaps I am asking myself that already.
