I wonder at times why I continue to maintain this blog. I thought, when I set it up, that it would be a continuation of the previous polemical blog over at Liturgiae Causa. That was set up in defiance of manifest charlatanry and was for long the forum for me and others to discuss all the tired and bogus arguments surrounding Rome’s liturgical history relative to its present situation. I profess no more interest in those questions or putative solutions to them, even if there were any, and I am too much of a novice in my new faith to speak with authority about it; still less am I a patristics scholar or theologian. I set this place up more to just let people know that I was still alive, and I suppose that vainly I missed being a “voice” out there. But I don’t anymore. It occurred to me soon after the first few posts here that I had nothing left to say. “Blogging,” which started for me in 2008, was very much the manifestation of “Patricius,” a person reminiscent of my new self but myself no longer. Sort of like what one of my old tutors at Heythrop said to me about a chapter in a book he had written thirty years ago with which he no longer agreed. My whole world view has undergone a profound change. I am therefore giving serious thought to just packing it all in. Readership has haemorrhaged, perhaps because I don’t write anything of substance these days, but undoubtedly because I have offended people with my views or with silence. If you care to know, I feel as if I have become stopped clock!

In any case, I have more important things to do for the Church of Christ than to commit myself to the frivolity and futility of this stuff. The LORD’s work, in fact; such as finding a suitable new church for mission work in the area. I wonder if, years from now when I look back on my blogging years, I’ll ask myself what on earth possessed me to take it up in the first place? But perhaps I am asking myself that already.

5 thoughts on “Blogging…

  1. As one of your readers with whom I know you would differ a great deal… I admit to gaining a lot of knowledge and insight here and on your previous blog, about fact & opinion, yes, but also how to be intellectually honest. I think (apart from those self-deluding souls who do it to congratulate themselves) that blogging seems to run two ways for people. It is for some people an exploration of ideas that keeps them fresh and interested and expressive. For others it is a way of laying themselves naked, objectifying themselves to the world and to their own selves, and is a terrible anaphatic way to self-knowledge that strips away one’s vanity and self-importance. One puts one’s inner soul on display on a thoroughfare that all the world walks down, and then at some point one suspects that the world is walking past, utterly disinterested. Perhaps there is something too discarnate about this internet for some of us, who turn away in the end with a kind of relief. But I am presumptuous enough to suggest that a great deal has been gained for you through all this.


  2. This is a beautiful and true kind of reflection on blogging. It is also something to be compared with putting a message in a bottle and throwing it into the sea. Upon being found, it might be discarded as rubbish, or read through curiosity. I don’t suppose it is any different from nay other kind of publishing. How many books end up collecting dust in a second-hand bookshop, with no one interested in buying them or even getting them free?

    In my experience, the only thing that attracts more attention is arguing about “hot button” issues. I have also found that my cris de coeur attract little interest and no comments, ditto for my more philosophical reflections. That is only to be expected since I probably have very little in common with most of my readers. That is the brick wall you bumped into.

    Like Novalis, I think that the only thing of worth is education of those who might find merit in what we say, at least for their consideration until they reject it or prove it to be wrong objectively. Our experience of blogging evolves over the years, and is more of an ascetic and intellectual experience for the writer than the anonymous and unknown readers. This has happened to me from the days of polemics over the issues of the TAC and Anglicanorum coetibus – to my more peaceful but insignificant role as a priest in a marginal continuing Anglican Church. You, Patrick, are finding the same thing as an Orthodox layman trying to adjust to your new religious culture and spiritual references.

    If we are truly exhausted, it may be a time to suspend the blogging and do something else, without it being a definitive decision. No one else cares. There is nothing wrong with taking a break and perhaps returning to it later, without making any earth-shattering announcements. Again, no one cares. Our treasure is their trash.

    Just live your life and keep yourself healthy in every way.


  3. Patrick, be patient with yourself and your four or five respondants! Not sure how many followers you have but I’m one, found you through Fr. Anthony some time ago. I think you have some valuable things to say. Even a stoppd clock can ring a bell twice a day! I continue my prayers for you from the other side of the pond.


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